The Abomination of Desolation

It's rare that i write two blog within such short proximiaty to each other however, within the period of 10 mins, too much things happened.

Here i am inside a cold and peaceful environment. Everything is still, can hear my own breathing as well as the computer's processing sound. Was somehow blog hopping when i stumbled upon yue ming's blog.

The presence of God came upon me. I guess God loves us too much to leave us in the dark. I could picture myself being surrounded with the cloud of the presence of God. However, the presence of God was around me but not within me. I wasn't carrying the presence of God.

I don't know how much you know that God loves you but i know deep on the inside of me, that God loves me too much. Much more than i can ever imagine or could even repay. God, the most powerful and wonderful God, humbled himself, came down as man, chose to die on the cross, chose to get beaten, chose to get spat at, chose to get rejected. For whom?

It was for me and you. It was out of pure geniue love. The love that no gold nor silver can buy. People might not understand you now, or even forever, but it doesn't matter. We may face persecution but it doesn't matter. One touch from heaven is more precious than the life that i have, more valuable that all the money i can ever earn, one touch from heaven would take my life into a new dimension.

To shuk wai, honestly, i didn't know that being a teacher was that difficult. But look upon the face of Jesus. How he needed to die on the cross in order for us to come back into a relationship with us. Teaching isn't easy and it never will be. You have earned my respect and you have inspired me to grow in the lord. You might not know how or why or when, but take my word, you have. and a big thank you.

To yue ming: people will not know how much you care, some might take you for granted. You are a emotional person. Filled with more emotions than normal. That means that you are an important member in our cellgroup. You are the glue, the bonder within our cellgroup. No one might see you role, no one might understand what you are going thro. But our Father in heaven sees it, He is smiling and SHOUTING: "hey look, that's my daughter ming ming. :) " You will find your breakthro soon. And somehow, I know it's coming soon. You'll be surprise how sweet that will come.

Now, here i am in the room. Trying to hold back my tears. The atmosphere of the room has changed. Holy Spirit is in the room. His presence is here. Sometimes, we could literally touch the presence of God.

I just want to say that don't ever leave Him. Please don't ever leave God. It's my plea to all my christian friends. For our new brother and sister in christ, God has a plan for you. Yes you even eileen.. God has a plan for you. A great destiny for you.

When i was younger in my walk with Christ, i thought that if i couldn't fulfill my destiny, God would just use someone else to do the job. But no, without you, YOU, that destiny will NOT be fulfill. There will remain a void in your heart. Forever.

We search for love all the time. Babies seek love from their parents, then eventually from relationships and from their spouse and hobbies, etc. But on the inside of every human, we are created with a void. With a longing for something that the world can never offer.

For all my friends who are searching for the perfect relationship, I promise you that you will never find in the world. Stop wasting all your youth looking for the cute guy only to be hurt one day. Yeah, you might say hey, my bf loves me. But every one of us isn't perfect and one day, he might turn his back on you.

For all those who knows that there's a longing in your heart, please please stop suppressing that feeling. Stop rejecting the call of God. Stop hurting God. God almighty don't want your gold or silver or your HDB flat. All He wants is a relationship with you. He wants to talk to you and be a friend to you.

Lastly, i want all of the christian who don't have parental objection to know that you are very fortunate. Today, I experienced and saw before my eyes. How a child of God, who loves his presence, who adores the Holy Spirit, came so close to going to church but got rejected. I was convicted within my heart at that moment. I never knew that going to church was a blessing that i has been experiencing.

Jia Li is going to be someone of great destiny. Hallelujah! Yeah, trust me people, if she keeps on her walk with christ, she'll come up to be someone of great destiny. Out of the mouth of children comes pure praise.

To all my friends: Pray for me. Thanks

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WHAT ARE YOU STILL LOOKING AT?

Anyway, for all the naughty people who don't understand english, here's my blog.

happy birthday to mummy.

Everything gonna be alright, i've got Jesus in me. Void is a word that has creep into the society recently. According to dictionary.com, void is defined as Null, devoid, lacking of something...

I pray that i'll never be using this word in my life but somehow or rather, we live in a fallen world. A preverted world of corrupted morals and ungodliness has began. At certain phrase of my life, i have to confess that void was used to describe those times.

God has given blessed me with an analytical mind and it has wonderful. These are things which i haven't shared to all my friends. In the past, i used to be a shy and always keep things to myself. I ponder on issue of life and many other things.

Maybe here's a glimpse on the other side of Marcus. I can be just a little naughty at times. Though not many has seen that side of me but those that has seen it wished they haven't.. Haha.. i don't think it's that bad lah hor? *winks

Anyway, i don't know what's the purpose of this entry but somehow since i felt like exercising my fingers, i shall continue for a while more. Hmm... I'll be leaving for china in a weeks time. Well, i guess there will be things that i'll miss. LIke my bed, cell group meeting, etc etc

However, here's something that i've seldom felt before in my life until recently. The feeling of missing someone so badly, wishing that they could be with you but yet you are so powerless to bring them to yourself.

Powerless... Hmm... this word has evoke some thoughts into my mind at this point of time. What is power? Is power just a word found in the dictionary, or perhaps power is a technical term used by mechanics? hmm... what about power is something women could never understand why men would die to achieve it?

Well, i guess the greatest power i would ever see in my life is something really simple yet powerful. It's LOVE. Love is very power. It's the same power that would drive any mother to dive in the way of her children just to save their life. It's also the same power that will drive couple to save up for months just to buy something sweet.

If you have noticed, love requires action. You can love something without giving, but you can never give without loving. Love requires proof. It require you to do something or rather will i say that love will drive you to do something.

Friends, watch what you say when you say i love you in the future. To some of us, it's a meaningless word however, to another party, it could mean life and death. Flirting around isn't a form of love but rather it's a form of selfishness.

Shall continue my blog some other time. Got to catch up on my studies.

*marcus misses someone lots